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Pointless Planning vs. Timeless Trust

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Have you ever felt like things are about to turnaround for you and you begin to think, “This is my chance to finally get my life together – get fit, eat right, quit my job, launch out and follow my dreams.” I’ve been there before and alas! I’m often disappointed by surprises from the unknown and life’s eventualities.

You see life happens, ALL the time! Stuff you never planned for and would prefer not to happen, pop-up a bit too often – seasons of illness, financial constraints and debt, car trouble, work stress, family turmoil, loss of a loved one – there’s always something to derail one’s rose-coloured vision of the perfect life. Such things we simply cannot plan or prepare ourselves for. We don’t know which crisis will hit, and at what inopportune time they will occur. Life just happens, whenever it does.

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Spoilt Plants

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My mom was away for a few weeks, and I was tasked with watering her plants, among other things. This is not something I normally do, and I actually forgot that the plants needed watering until a few days into her being away. Finally when I remembered I got on it. Then I missed a couple days. The next time I watered, I noticed some of the plants with shriveled leaves pointing downward. And I thought “What spoilt plants! Why do they need to be watered EVERYDAY?! Can’t they survive on what they got a couple days before?” Other plants stood up to the heat of the sun, but these shriveled ones apparently weren’t so strong, and needed more care.

A week later, I experienced one of my worst weeks in a while. I’ve had bad days, but this time, it was a bad week. Money challenges, damaging my car by reversing in a metal post, demands on my time from the ministry, and packed work days. My day would start horrible and end a bit cheerful, or start great and end with me bursting into tears. By Friday, I was a blubbering mess. I needed help! I needed someone to rescue me. I was that plant with dried up, withered leaves, bending over under the pressure of life. I struggled to smile. My tears were flowing freely, all Friday morning, as I took on another busy day of meetings and emails.

I cried out and God came to my rescue. I felt watered by the end of the day. I was refreshed and uplifted as my darling husband left work early to run errands for me, and my mentor encouraged and prayed for me. I made headway with my other tasks. Though the pathway is still not clear, my emotions are no longer in turmoil over the life’s challenges. I will trust God each day, and I have no doubt that He will make a way.

I watered the plants Sunday morning, with sympathy for those withered plants. They needed rescuing, and I was there for that.  I was more than happy to give them their much needed drink of water, and felt pleased to see those which were already responding to their refreshing, by standing a little taller, leaves spread out like open palms, and raised upwards. Yes, the plants too, gave God thanks for His blessings.

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So sometimes we need to be rescued, because life gets too much to bear. If you are in need of a refreshing, God is able to take you through the storm. If you can, find someone to talk to, who can pray with and encourage you. We need each other to make it.

“The generous will prosper; those who refresh others will themselves be refreshed.” Proverbs 11:25

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Testimony

It’s been a while since my last blog post. I broke my ‘once-a-week’ blogging rhythm because I’ve been busy. It is as if right after my post Blur of Busyness, I fell prey. But I did live the experience and I enjoyed every moment.

Most of the pieces I share on this blog I have written from as far back as 2008.  This evening, I went through and re-read some of my ‘Words’, and re-lived painful memories, struggles, frustration, and brokenness. I have seen so much progress in myself, especially my self-esteem and confidence. I am no longer at the place I was then. To God be the Glory.

One thing remains the same though, and it’s my heart towards God, a heart of surrender to His Will for me.  I also re-read Words of Prophecy which I have received over my life. Some have come to pass, but there is more. God’s word will be fulfilled, because He is not man that He should lie. His purpose for me was predestined before I was formed in my mother’s womb. His word that comes to me is to remind and encourage me to keep on believing and pressing on. There is now a greater anticipation for the greatness to come in my life and the great things that I will do.

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